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| AYE MY BOYS & GIRLS WHATS UP...
WELL YES ii GOTTA END THiiS XANGA & MYSPACE THiiNG ALL OVER AGAiiN BECAUSE THiiS STOOPiiD COMPUTER & ii ARE THROUGH!!.. iiT GAVE ME DRAMA.. iiT GAVE ME HORRIBLE GRADES .. WELL THAS ALL ME.. THOUGH.. ii GUESS ii WAS TOO STUCK UP iiNTO DRAMA & THiiS BEEZZY COMPUTER.. THAT ii DROPED GRADES.. REALL BAD... SO ii GROUNDED MY SELF.. MY MOM THiiNKS SHE DiiD BUT ii DiiD.. AHAH. BUT OKAE. WHAT EVER. ii AM NOW NOT USiiNG MY HOUSE COMPUTER ANY MORE & iiF ii GOT AN ESSAY TO DO.. iiTS ALL AT SCHOOL.. iiM SORRiiE BOYS & GiiRLS.. iiL MiiS YOU ALL NOW iiF YOU WANNA KNOW WHATS UP WiiT ME YOU GOTTA JUST TALK TO ME AT SCHOOL!!. OKAE.. WELL MY FiiNALL RECAP FOR NOW WiiLL BE SPOKEN..
WELL OKAE..
LOVERS LiiFE
WELL OKAE.. iiM ALL GOOD ii GUESS.. JUST CONFUSED. ii THiiNK ii REALLY LOVE HiiM BUT iiM NO LONGER SCAREED TO LOOSE HiiM.. iiF ii LOSE HiiM THEN ii DO.. YA KNOW. iiM NOT GONE WORK MY ASS OFF TRYiiNG TO TELL HiiM TO TAKE ME BACK BECAUSE ii DONT NEED iiT ANY MORE.. iiF ii HAVE THAT ATTiiTUDE TOWARDS HiiM THEN.. SHiiT iiTS GONE BE RUiiNiiNG EVERYTHiiNG.. FOR SOME REASON. ii SEE WHAT MY MOMMA iiS TELLiiNG ME.. BOYS DO GET STUCK iiN YOUR HEAD.. THAS WHY MY GRADES DROPED ii THiiNK TO MUCH OF .. WELL ii USED TO THiiNK TOO MUCH OF.. WHERE HE iiS iiS HE HERE & iiF HE iiSN'T WERE iis HE.. YA GET? iiTS ALL ABOUT HiiM NOT ABOUT ME. OR MY FRiiENDS.. BUT SHOOT.. WHATEVER.. ii DONT CARE ANYMORE.. BECAUSE ii KNOW BOYS DONT LAST FOREVER NOPE THEY LAAST FOR A WHiiLE AND ii KNOW iiM NOT READY TO TAKE THAT BiiG LEAP TO FOREVER THE THOUGHT OF THE LONG MARRiiGE THiiNG SCARES THE SHiiT OUT OF ME.. ii WAS TALKiiNG TO BiiJAN ABOUT iiT TODAY.. ii MEAN HE'S READY FOR FOREVER.. BUT ii AM SURE NOT.. AND ii KNOW ii WONT BE FOR A LONG TiiME.. AND ii KNOW iiTS HARD.. BUT ii DONT KNOW. iiM STiiL A KiiD GROWiiNG UP.. ii CANT SAY iiM ANY THiiNG ELSE RiiGHT NOW.. iiTS JUST ALL A MiiXTURE OF FEELiiNGS iiN ME THAT ii CANT EXPLAiiNE. AND iitS SAD TO SAY.. !!..
ii LOVE MY LiiFE iiM CONTENT WiiTH WHAT ii HAVE.. ii KNOW MY FAULTS AND ii REALiiZE THAT LiiFE iiSN'T WORTH WAiiSTiiNG FOR STOOPiiD MiiSTAKES.. iiM NOT SCARED OF DEATH BECAUSE ii KNOW EVERYONE DiiES BUT ii AM SCARED THAT MY MOM WiiLL HAVE TO SEE ME DiiE...
ii TOTALLY FEEL LiiKE iiVE DiiSAPPOiiNTED EVERYONE iiN MY FAMiiLY THEY ALL EXPECTED ME TO DO GREAT BUT ii GUESS ii LET THEM DOWN!!.. MY GRADES WERE HORiiBLE.. iiT SEEMED SO EASiiE BUT WHY WERE THEY SO lOW? WHY DiiD WERE THEY SO BAD!!!.. ii HATE iiT. ii HATE THAT ii DiiSAPPOiinTED ATE Tii' BABY MY MOM.. MAN.. ii EVEN DiiSAPPOiiNTED MYSELF .....
ii HOPE THE NEXT TiiME ii GO BACK ON HERE ii HAVE SOMETHiiNG NiiCE TO SAY. iiF iiTS STiiL ALiiVE. iiLL ASK SOMEONE TO KEEP iiT UP FOR ME.. HAHA. ...
<3 YER FUNKiie FRESH STOOPiiFiiED iiRiiS!!!... | | |
| well yes.. boys |&| girls.. whats up!!!!
DiiSNEYLAND
WELL BOYS AND GiiRLS.. MY WEEKEND.. WELL OKAE.. ii GOT TO OXNARD AT ABOUT 12 iiN THE MORNiiNG AND ii FELT BAD BECAUSE MY COUSiiN CHRiiSTY WAS WAiiTiiNG UP FOR ME AND WE TOOK FOR EVER BECAUSE MY STEPFATHER TOOK FOREVER DRiiViiNG.. SO SHE FELL ASLEEP AND WOKE UP 30 MiiNS AFTER WE GOT THERE... WELL YES.. CHRiiSTY AND ii STAYED UP TiiL 230 iiN THE MORNiiNG. JUST TALKING AND iiT WAS AWSOME!!.. ii ENJOYED EVERYTHiinG..ii LOVE HER SO MUCH... AND ii LOVE HOW SHE HAS A WOUNDERFULL BOYFRiiEND... !!!.. HE LOVES YOU GiiRL.. iiF HE TALKS TO "MOMS AND POPS" ABOUT ERRYTHiiNG.. HAHA.. THAS KOOL.. WELLLBiiES. YEA.. WE SLEPT LATE AND THE NEXT MORNiiNG HOLLY SHiiT iiT WAS POURiiNG RAiiN BUT YEA.. iiT ENDED UP GETTiiNG SUNNiiE... WE LEFT FOR LA AT AROUND 10 ii GUESS AND GOT THERE ABOUT 12 OR SO.. AND WE DiiDN'T GO TO DiiSNEYLAND TiiL LATER ON iiN THE AFTERNOON.. iiT WAS FUN.. UNTiiL THE PARENTS STARTED TO SAY. "STAY iiN ONE PLACE" SO THE FAMiiLY WiiL BE TOGETHER.. NOOOOOO!!! HAHA. BUT YEA.. THEN.. WHAT HAPPENED WE RODE RiiDES AND ii ENDED UP ENJOYiiNG EVERYMiiNUTE OF iiT!!!.. THEN.. CHRiiSTY HAD TO LEAVE THAT NiiGHT .. THiiS WAS THE ONLiiE SEPERATiiON WE HAD THAT ii CRiiED WHEN SHE LEFT.. ii GUESS iiT WAS JUST TOO SOON FOR HER TO LEAVE.. THEN LiiSETTE AND ii STAYED iiN THE JACCUZZii AND TALKED AND iiT MADE ME REALiiZE EVEN MORE.. ii DONT CARE iiF ii LOOSE JUSTiiN ANY MORE.. ii DONT CARE iiF HE'S NOT MiiNE.. BOYS ARE SUPPOSED TO MAKE YOU HAPPiiE BUT HE DOESN'T... SO TO MEE iiTS KOOL iiF iiT DOESN'T WORK OUT.. iiTS KOOL iiF WERE over!!!.. ii ACTUALLYWUD LiiKE THAT BETTER.. ")... YES.. WELL ANY WAYS.. ME AND LiiSETTE SLEPT LATE.. AND THEN YEA. WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNiiNG.. TODAY!.. AND LEFT THE HOTEL AT LIKE 830AM.. AND WE WENT TO GiiLROY.. BUT JORDANS... AND AN ECHO JACKET AND ii LOVE EM.. SPENT MORE THAN 100 BUT iiTS ALL WORTH iiT.. ii LOVE iiT ii WAS THiiNKiiNG OF CHRiiSTY THE WHOLE TiiME BECAUSE WE ALWAYS GO SHOPPiiNG WEN WE SEE EACH OTHER. AND THiiS TiiME WE DiiDN'T GET TO GO SHOPPiiNG TOGETHER.. WE ALWAYS GET SOMETHiiNG .. THE SAME WHEN WE SEE EACH OTHER. BUT no!!!! WE DiiDN'T. SUCKS.. BUT YEA. ii OWE MY SEXiiE.. ii MiiSS HER VERY muCHO GRANDE!!!.. SNiiF SNiiF.. "(... iiM SAD NOW. SHUCKS..
TODAii!!!
WELL ii JUST GOT BACK.. FROM OUR TRiiP AND NOW iiM TiiERED.. BYE LOVERS AND FRiiENDS TAKE CAREz.. <3 iiRiiS!!! | | |
| hey boys |&| girls..
what it do kiidS.. whats Up.. dAmn so dOwn lOw rIGht now. MAN.. i just watched the notebook |&| its FUKCING awsome.. i love the movie its so sweet.. but i mean i dont think people see those love stories now adays... well yes i just gotta say if i had 7 thumbs. Deys be up for dis MOVIE.. well Yes..
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well school is going good. yes.. i guess.. im having a horrible time in biology its to fuKCING confussing specially since my net isn't there no more to help my little dumb ass.. well yes.. thats all i really gotta say. hah except for some fuCKIn hater that cant stop talking shit .. ya feel. thaS rIght. sHe can act so frUckin fake.. grr.. well my other past drama is better now.. i can see that hazel is treating kassandra fantasticlly..hah. well i hope thier good. kassandra is kool hah she's there for me |&| i say THANKS!!.. well yes..
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is it love is it.. is GOD's sign wrong.. did i ask him.. did he make a mistake or did i make a mistake did i miss read the sign why did i ever ask.. i cant forget him i cant hate him i cant do anything without him.. i wanna say i love you very much but half of me is saying no you cant give in not YET!!!.. i dont know whats coming over me right now.. i dont know whats happening but i can always forgive him.. i can always let him back in my heart i can always let him do what he wants... i can always lie to myself.. just for him.. i feel i wud do anything for him i feel like i cud change for him.. i feel like i can die |&| i shudn't |&| yet i shud.. am i supposed to be this lost or am i just stoopid... i dont wanna loose him.. i dont wanna share i admit i am selfish |&| i want him to my self.. but i dont know IS HE?.. am i the only one heis thinking of.. am i the only one who kisses him.. am i the only one who he makes feel special.. but i dont know.. it hurts me to think that he's with her i hate her i cant share with her i cant share with anyone but i want him real bad i want him to my self |&| no one else.. i wanna be the only kiss the only girl the only ONE!! | | |
| aint it funny how things can seem so perfect |&| become so darK... | | |
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…If I jump from the highest tower would you be at the bottom to catch me? If I fell down would you be the one to help me up?.. If I died would you be the first to cry?.. If I lost my love would you be the one to bring him back?.. If that was you would you bring yourself back?…..
Mood: indescribable sad/ confused/ lost
Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel sad |&| bummed… Is it because I think I’ve lost him or is it because I KNOW I’ve lost him?… I don’t know. I don’t know. I have no clue… I’m just lost at the moment |&| I don’t know what to do!!!.. What the HELL am I supposed to do… SHIT… I’m… stressed NO!!.. Am I in denial because I don’t want to be SAD?? Or is it because I KNOW!!?…
Crazy how things you want come to you eh? I think so… It comes |&| it fucking goes… its okay… Just as long as I know I had it…
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Yesterday night was great for me!!.. Shit… You know I never get to spend time with my auntie Connie |&| yesterday I did… With her BOYFRIEND |&| ate Michelle I was never so happier… Well I mean I was but you know figure of speech… Ahah… Well yesterday we ate at macaroni grill |&| shit it was awesome thanks you guys… It was AUNTIE CONNIE |&| ATE MICHELLES BIRTHDAY so HAPPY BELATED GUYS… well yea… Okay that’s all I have to say just the crap I’ve been thinking of just had to go fly you know? Yes, I hope so… Haha… Well okay take care kiddos… Bye… | | |
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